A bit of everything. Many sides of my life reflecting a lot of personalities

Showing posts with label narcissism. Show all posts
Showing posts with label narcissism. Show all posts

Sunday, May 03, 2009

Me humble. no way.....

Don't hate me because I am awesome. hehehehe
We were queuing for the food after the service. Look like in depressed time, where everybody has to queue for oil, rice, bread, like in the 50s? I hope my history teaching still has their mark in my brain. :-D. A friend of mind Andreas introduce me to a guy named David, do you know Paul, the awesome guy. He is working in X company, and nobody really know what is he doing, and very difficult to understand what is he doing, it is something with computer, strategy, etc. huahahahahaha
I don't care. the point is I am awesome. So people don't hate me for I am really awesome.

A friend of mine called me. Sophia her name. She said something like this. Paul it is really fun to have friend like you, you have good job, good knowledge, etc, etc, but you are very down to earth. I said: What did you just said? Me down to earth? Don't say that. I belong to the greatest people living on earth list, I am not down to earth. She said yes I am, cause I can eat cheap food go to very small restaurant on the street doesn't care have to be in the high expensive restaurant. I can be in the ordinary restaurant. I said: NO WAY. Don't put me in the same class with peasant people. I born to be rich and powerful. I am not ordinary people. I can eat there because I am stingy. STINGY I don't like spending money for f***ing expensive restaurant. It is not because I am humble!!!!!! Don't say that word. Oh a bad image for me. :-D

The 2nd part was really our conversation. But I need to correct many things. The real me is:

I am not humble to arrogant people, I will be even more arrogant than them
I love to be with people, for me everyone born as human being, there is no a better race, better class of people. We are all human.
I don't like to talk about how much I earn, what I have, etc. It is not something you need to brag for.

I was in my country last month, there a huge gap between the have and the have not. I ordered a BECAK driver for a day to drive me everywhere in one small city. And I had to drag him over inside the restaurant so he could eat with me on the same table. A country where there most of the time you have servant to serve you for almost everything. In my parents house we don't have servant, we have to do everything ourselves. It is okay. Nothing bad without having servants.

I could not see the poverty, I could not understand how poverty and the rich can stand together side by side there. A huge difference, a family living inside a cart (yes a cart what we called gerobak) and beside them is a very luxury over the top mall Pacific Place. This family could not even buy a single thing from that mall. It was really hurt for me to see that.

Yes I love buying good things, I love leather a lot, I have may be more than 10 leather bags, suitcases, etc. I bought that with my own money. Now everytime I am buying thing, I always reminded how much other people earn, it is good, it teachs me to be wise with the money, better to use it, where can be useful or even blessing to others.

Thanks for all things that You have given me. And led me to be a blessing wherever I am. Difficult, but I will try

Saturday, October 04, 2008

Each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves

ok let me start

Lazy bump, totally slack. Sometimes after my business travel, just left everything on the floor. Baggage, suits, ties, trousers, etc.

Narcissism, have a very high confidence in my job world. Do not afraid to talk in front of hundred of people. Can talk about anything.

Shy, a bit of contrast. I can be a very shy person. Can shy away and do not talk. Especially to a beautiful woman hahahahaha.

Sarcasm, it is not my intention to be mean. But I am strict if somebody made mistakes he/she has to admit that. So do I. But I can play a very crazy politic in the job world if I have to protect my department. I can crush the enemy

Do more than one thing altogether. Very seldom to find me only doing one thing. I like doing a lot of thing in the same time.

Don't afraid to be in conflict. Did that a lot sometimes on purpose. They call me the crazy asian.

Speedy. They call me hammy from the "over the edge" film. Due that I am really fast in doing anything. Count on me on that.

Because of this. I don't drink coffee. My colleagues do not dare to give me caffeine. They afraid the side effect just like Hammy. :-D hahahahahaha. Yes I am a tee drinker not a coffee. So starbucks? what for? I don't go there. If I go, I only order chocolate

Straight to the point. I don't like bla bla bla talk. I talk directly to the source. For many people I am impolite, don't care about courtessy bla bla bla. Well that's me I don't give respect to people just because they are older than me. To get respect from me you have to earn that.

Centre of Attention, yeah as you see I like to be the centre of the universe. Hahahahahaha just joking. I am not that narcissistic guy.

I hope its already 10. If not added another time. It is too early in the morning here. Get back to sleep now..

Sunday, September 07, 2008

obrolan ancur banget

a bit x-rated. hehehehe. a chat with a very old friend of mine, who is doing his MBA in other part of the world.

BUZZ!!!
Berto: poel!
Paul: ape
Berto: eh gue udeh kasi tau belon si Ayub kuliah di mari?
Paul: blom
Paul: hehehe
Paul: keren keren
Berto: lagi stress tuh die, hehehehehehehehehe
Paul: nape?
Berto: biasalah, belajar gak ngerti2 (problem bahasa), tugas banyak, performance masih rata2, low confidence banget dia sekarang
Paul: normal lah
Paul: biasa kan awal awal
Paul: loh bilang dong kalau loh aja bisa masak dia nggak bisa hehehe senyum sinis
Berto: iye gue bilangin juga begitu
Paul: emang susah banget yah?
Paul: gua aja bisa kuliah double dulu hehehe nyombong abis
Berto: cuman emang masih belon nemu form tuh dia
Paul: kelamaan nggak kuliah juga pengaruh kan. Otak juga agak agak tak terbiasa untuk belajar
Berto: bener banget itu
Berto: apalagi dia selama ini sibuk kerja, kalau gue kan selalu menyempatkan diri utk belajar walaupun bekerja (nyombong abis juga)
Berto: jadi adaptasi gue lebih cepet
Paul: bener banget itu gua aja sekarang tetap belajar. Biasa sebagai kepala department kecil di sini. Gua harus terus belajar. Nyombong abis abisan banget
Berto: makanya tahun kemaren walaupun gue telat ikut Pre-MBA, tapi pas kuis pertama di Pre-MBA itu gue bisa keluar duluan pas yang lain masih di pertengahan (gak mau kalah sombong)
Berto: nah si Ayub ini pas kuis pertama, cuman bisa break even doang, tapi pas kuis kedua udeh lumayan bisa masuk average
Paul: tau nggak. Minggu lalu gua bilang mau mengundurkan diri. Langsung jabatan gua ditambah (team leader for global bla bla bla) dan naik gaji. Mampus nggak nih sombongnya
Berto:
Berto: taktik lama tuh, belagak mau berenti biar dinaikin gaji
Berto: lu emang paling bokis di antara kita
Paul: alah gua kan belajar dari loh semuanya
Paul: btw bokis itu apa?
Berto: bisaan
Berto: kasian juga si Ayub, di kamarnya orang ngobrol mulu dia gak bisa belajar, udeh gitu laptop barunya crash
Paul: eh gua kemaren menang capoeira dong. Gila gua emang tambah jago. Walaupun muka gua ampe merah kena tendang huahahahaha. Mampus nngak sombongnya gua
Berto: wets
Paul: loh kok dikamarnya orang ngobrol. Emang dia berdua?
Berto: 6 orang
Paul: WHATTTTT
Paul: satu kamar 6 ranjang gitu..... Atau satu apartement 6 kamar?
Paul: eh gua mau nulis 6 kamars loh maksud gua biar plural gitu. Garing banget ini otak
Berto: hehehehe
Berto: otaklu emang korslet pul
Berto: kebanyakan gaul sama turkmen
Paul: eh 6 kamar atau 6 ranjang satu kamar?
Paul: nggak bisa ehem ehem dong. you know what I meant
Berto: 1 kamar ada 2 ruang tidur dan 1 ruang belajar. 1 ruang tidur muat 3 orang
Paul: hmmm gua nggak bisa deh.
Berto: gak bisa ehem ehem
Paul: lagian gua juga suka tidur bugil. huahahaha
Berto:
Berto:
Berto: untung lu gak begitu waktu di XXXXX
Paul: eh gua di rumah suka bugil. ke dapur bugil
Berto:
Paul: agak agak exhibitionist huahahaha dan jendela gua nggak ada tirainya
Berto:
Berto: eh salah
Berto:
Berto: di YYYYY lu begitu juga ya????????????
Paul: nggaklah masak di Indo
Berto: kebiasaaan kan gak kenal tempat
Paul: disini kan my own space, my own life
Berto: LU EMANG GILA PUL
Berto: huahahahahahahaha
Berto: kebanyakan gaul sama senegal dan angola
Berto: lu sering bugil karena:
Berto: 1. males cuci baju
Berto: 2. ac sudah soak, sering rusak
Berto: 3. males mandi, jadi gak mau keringetan
Paul: salah
Paul: 1. ada mesin cuci
Berto: 4. biar gampang mainin
Paul: 2. disini dingin
Paul: 3. gua mandi paling dikit 3 kali seminggu
Berto: 5. ultra narsis, suka ngagumin bodi sendiri
Berto: TIGA KALI SEMINGGU???
Paul: 4. mainin bisa tanpa melepas pakaian
Paul: 5.untuk itu gua ada kaca super duper gede
Berto: 6. lu punya tetangga yg eksibisionis
Berto: juga
Paul: 6. nggak tuh
Berto: 7. lu sering ngayal jadi HULK
Paul: 7. nggak tuh
Berto: 8. lu sering ngayal jadi bintang film bokep
Berto: 9. supaya lu cepet aware kalau ada kutu di daerah terlarang
Paul: 8. ngapain ngayal jadi bintang bokep. Gajinya nggak banyak. Aktingnya nggak bagus. Skript ceritanya bosenin banget. Kalau gua jadi sutradara yang pertama gua lakukan bikin bokep dengan alur cerita yang bener
Paul: 9. Emang di Indo
Berto: hehehehehehehe
Berto: 10. supaya asyik kalau nyenggol2 perabotan
Berto: malah mungkin lu sengaja senggol2in ya??????
Paul: 10.apa enaknya sih. Loh sering yah hehehehe
Berto: yeeee, gue kan gak kayak lu yg bugil ke mana2
Berto: btw gue sudah disangkain gila kali nih, dari tadi ketawa mulu
Paul: Lah senggal senggol dengan celana diluar pun bisa.
Berto: yah tapi lu kan senggol2 tanpa perantara sensasinya lebih terasa
Berto:
Paul: wah gua nggak menimatinya tuh. Dan nggak kepikir untuk mencoba.
Berto: 11. lu pengen ngerasain breeze sepanjang waktu di sekujur kulit, terutama di daerah sensitif
Paul: hahahaha. kayaknya gua udah nggak sensitif itu.
Berto: :-0
Berto:
Berto: udeh kapalan maksudlu???????
Paul: hahahahahahah terlalu sering dikeluiarkan dari celana
Paul: udah ah ancur banget ini obrolannya
Berto: TAPI LU BENER2 GILAAAA PUUUUULLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!
Berto: boleh gue sebarin ke anak2 gak nih?
Paul: ah siapa yang percaya

Sunday, May 04, 2008

i am so fine!!!

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Your Result: Personality
 

Your best quality is your personality! People like you because you are an all around good person. You have good manners and values. You also like to express your personal style and interests.

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just bear it with me. I am so in narcissism world today. :-D
I am such a fine guy. The most eligible guy on earth....

have to admit I have many free days this moment. So I can write and write and write as much as I want

narcissism

DisorderRating
Paranoid:Moderate
Schizoid:Moderate
Schizotypal:Moderate
Antisocial:Moderate
Borderline:Low
Histrionic:Low
Narcissistic:High
Avoidant:Low
Dependent:Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:Low

-- Personality Disorder Test --
-- Personality Disorder Information --




see now I am convinced that I am a total narcissistic guy. And I am so damn proud to be one of them. Although the disorder is not that high (there is still "very high" level, I am only high. Guess have to work more on that to achieve "very high" level). The good side, that is the only personality dissorder I have.

Thursday, May 01, 2008

funny

my friends consider me as a very open and funny person, very active, and talks a lot.

people who only get in touch with me from a distance will think that I am arrogant..

people at work as friend think me as a very efficient, work faster than anyone even superman, ambitious, and always achieving the good things for the team. But as enemy they will think me of very dangerous, bitchy, can fight and bite, doesn't afraid to get in the way.

Sunday, April 06, 2008

how dare you to compare me with George W Bush. He is a lunatic. Sorry for that.


Famous ESTJs

Real ESTJ People

* Andrew Jackson - American President
* Bette Davis - actress
* Carrie Nation - advocate
* Elliot Ness - prohibition agent
* George W. Bush - American President
* Grover Cleveland - American President
* James Monroe - American President



* John D. Rockefeller - industrialist, philanthropist
* Lyndon B. Johnson - American President
* Pat Summit - basketball coach
* Rev. Billy Graham - evangelist, writer
* Robert A. Taft - Governor of Ohio
* Sam Walton - founder of Wal-Mart
* William Henry Harrison - American President


Fictional ESTJs (Characters)

* Lucy van Pelt - Peanuts (Charlie Brown)
* Mrs. Harbottle - All Creatures Great and Small
* Mrs. Rachel Lynde - Anne of Green Gables



* Princess Leia Organa - Star Wars
* The Mayor - The Music Man
* Tony Soprano - The Sopranos

ESTJ Career Matches

ESTJs are often happy with the following jobs which tend to match well with the Overseer/Protector personality.

* Accountant
* Auditor
* Banker
* Business Administrator
* Business Analyst
* Computer Specialist
* Detective
* Economist
* Editor
* Engineer



* Financial Officer
* Government Worker
* Insurance Agent
* Judge
* Lecturer
* Librarian
* Manager
* Marketer
* Military Leader
* Nursing Administrator



* Police
* Researcher
* Sales Representative
* Scientist
* Senior Manager
* Teacher
* Teacher/Professor
* Technical Specialist
* Underwriter
* Writer
I am a scary person. OH NOOOOOO


About the ESTJ
Expert Quotes & Links

"ESTJs live in a world of facts and concrete needs. They live in the present, with their eye constantly scanning their personal environment to make sure that everything is running smoothly and systematically. They honor traditions and laws, and have a clear set of standards and beliefs."
- Portrait of an ESTJ (The Personality Page)

"...go by experience and that is what counts, not speculation and experimentation, and certainly not fantasy. They keep their feet firmly on the ground and make sure that those under their supervision do the same..."
- The Portrait of the Supervisor (eStJ) (Keirsey)

"responsible, finisher, decisive, norm following, respects authority, punctual, hard working, stiff, self confident"
- Jung Type Descriptions (ESTJ) (similarminds.com)
"ESTJs thrive on order and continuity. Being extraverted, their focus involves organization of people, which translates into supervision. While ENTJs enjoy organizing and mobilizing people according to their own theories and tactically based agendas, ESTJs are content to enforce "the rules," often dictated by tradition or handed down from a higher authority."
- ESTJ Profile (TypeLogic)

"ESTJs prefer occupations that require an organized, logical, and practical bent that incorporates an effective use of time and resources. They pay attention to the organization's hierarchy and use policies and procedures to help them to move the tasks along. They like making decisions and dealing with concrete, specific facts."
- ESTJ - The Enforcer (Lifexplore)

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