Fire and Ice

A bit of everything. Many sides of my life reflecting a lot of personalities

Monday, March 15, 2010

Whom Shall I fear

After talking with a good friend of mine, pray about my life, my struggle, I sing about God's greatness. The old song that I have been looking for a long long time.

Whom Shall I fear from Darrel Evans

I will seek You Lord
While I am in my youth
I will serve You Lord
And I'll proclaim Your truth
For You searched and found me
While I was far away
And in my troubled times
You always keep me safe

The Lord is my light and my salvation
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
The Lord is the stronghold of my life
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear

I know that You are for me
I praise You 'cause You're for me

Psalm 27
King James Bible

1 The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the LORD is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?

2 When the wicked, even mine enemies and my foes, came upon me to eat up my flesh, they stumbled and fell.

3 Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this will I be confident.

4 One thing have I desired of the LORD, that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the LORD, and to enquire in his temple.

5 For in the time of trouble he shall hide me in his pavilion: in the secret of his tabernacle shall he hide me; he shall set me up upon a rock.

6 And now shall mine head be lifted up above mine enemies round about me: therefore will I offer in his tabernacle sacrifices of joy; I will sing, yea, I will sing praises unto the LORD.

7 Hear, O LORD, when I cry with my voice: have mercy also upon me, and answer me.

8 When thou saidst, Seek ye my face; my heart said unto thee, Thy face, LORD, will I seek.

9 Hide not thy face far from me; put not thy servant away in anger: thou hast been my help; leave me not, neither forsake me, O God of my salvation.

10 When my father and my mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up.

11 Teach me thy way, O LORD, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies.

12 Deliver me not over unto the will of mine enemies: for false witnesses are risen up against me, and such as breathe out cruelty.

13 I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.

14 Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.

Give up?

Dear God,

I came to a point, where the struggle is way too big for me, for me to face it, to deal with it, to finish it off. I have been running and running and running. I have tried not to face the problem.
Under rubbles of my life, on my bended knees I cried and beg for your mercy for your love to be poured unto me.
You have said, that you will not forsaken me, nor will you leave me. I hold on to your word and I plead to you for that. I will wait for the Lord, for the salvation come from Him alone. Therefore in this time I will wait with rest of my strength in front of You. Give me the power and confidence to trust in you alone.


Tuesday, September 15, 2009

never let go of me o Lord
I am really afraid that I will be separated from You o Lord.
Give me strength and power to humble before You.
My heart is yearning for You
Remember me o Lord
Come and fill me o Lord

Monday, September 14, 2009

from a friend of mine

God has made souls and He let them met in heaven face to face
and let them got introduced and told them this is your missing rib...
you both will be sent on earth in different families, different people

And one day you will meet each other and will fall for each other
No matter how you meet
No matter how you will find each other
but you will...
and then you both will recognise each other and will be in the relationship

So she is there somewhere
She will come to me herself when that would be the time
No matter how...
No matter where...
but when it will be the time
She will walk and will be in front of me
And my soul will recognise her....
That yes... this is my missing rib.

Yes my friend is truly talented. She can touch others with her word and her painting. A truly good friend. Her name is Stella....

Sunday, August 09, 2009

pastor said

what would you think if you knew that in 5 minutes you will die?
What would you regret? Things you haven't done in your life. What?
What I would do:

- not to count things I haven't done in my life
- not going to regret anythings which already passed
- not going to regret any sin, mistakes done

What I would do

- thinking seeing the Lord
- thinking I hope I was right, I believed that I will be with my Lord
- calling all my families, friends, telling them how I love them

I don't want die in regret. If I would die in 5 minutes, I would die in peace.

No regret. Appreciate every little thing you have in life. Sadness, happiness, are part of life. Life your live to the fullest.

After all that I can say yes I am proud of my life, I am happy to meet God. I am not saying that I am purely innocent. No way I have done many unthinkable sinful things. In my own eyes I can't be forgiven. But thank to the Lord that I am not God. Thanks that we have a great God, great Lord.

I will continue my race...

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Still so many things in this world to do, to see, to visit, and of course to shop.
I want to go to Israel to visit the place, where God promised Israel.
To visit Egypt, where Israel were forced into slavery. To see the greatness of sand, that no one can conquer. To see pyramid, Sphinx, rest of old civilization. To across the Nile.
To visit Greece, the old temple for worshipping ancient gods.
Adventure to tibet, to hanging monastery in China, to see kun lun pai temple.
Gosh I am really small compare to what earth has already experienced through the decade, centuries, million of years, changing civilization, etc.
In the quietness of the night
I wish I could hear voice of the earth.
Seeing the moon, stars remind me how small we are, human. Thought we sometimes carelessly without any respect just think of ourselves. Only thinking about job, work, girlfriend, love, problem, getting old, finance, credit crunch and so on. In a snap of fingers, we can be taken away from this world. Think what we have done in this world, what have we given to others, to the world. What have we done for the Lord up there.
Yes I am selfish.

Monday, June 01, 2009

dance baby dance

dance dance baby dance.

busy busy month


who said owning an appartment is easy. man all the work needs to be done. Starting from all the paper works (tax, courts, country register, etc), renovation from bringging the tap water to the water basin, kitchen, living room arrangement. Why on earth I was thiking when I bought the appartment.

But can make sure, this will be the coolest appartment in the city. Bringing a lot of Indonesian touch in the appartment. Some arty works such as "wayang", "batik painting", etc. Will be really damn cool.

Still have to do some other stuffs such as installing washing machine, move sofas, beds, from my old place, paint my old place etc.

Thursday, May 07, 2009

gua dianggap cowok murahan sialan!!!!

Nah gua lagi jalan sama temen gua orang bule nih.
Karenanya gua tulis bahasa indo, biar nggak ada yang bisa google terutama temen gua ini. Temen gua ini cewek umur sekitar empat puluhan. Kita janjian ketemuan di Bali. Oh yah sebagai background, kita pernah kerja bareng di salah satu kota di eropa, dan dia kerja sebagai salah satu bawahanlah.
Karena gua emang lagi demen shopping barang barang indo buat dekorasi appartment baru gua disini (cita citanya gua mau bikin appartment gua bener bener bernuansa indonesia. Karena kalau dihitung Euro barang di indonesia murah, gua belanjanya jadi buanyaaaaaaak banget. Ampe gua overweight di airport. SIALAN.), gua sama dia belanja di beberapa kota di Indonesia. Di beberapa daerah, ketika gua dan temen temen gua lihat-lihat barang, ada beberapa toko yang kita nggak belanja karena emang nggak ada yang disuka. Eh penjaga tokonya: minta Buklenya dong beliin, atau minta istrinya dong beliin. Gua yang langsung meledak-ledak.

Emangnya gua nggak bisa beli sendiri
Emangnya kalau gua jalan sama temen gua, anggapannya asia kalau jalan sama bule pasti dibayarin, agak agak kayak simpenan atau gigolo gitu.

Dan guanya langsung eh tolong yah gaji gua lebih gede dari dia, dan bahkan posisi gua lebih tinggi dari dia.

ARRRRGGGGHHHH orang indonesia gimana sihhhh