on vacation

so great
still in Jakarta
Just came back from Bali and Thailand. Will be in Jakarta for one week....
Done diving and surfing. Soooo great.....
Tell all the story later.


Paul

narcissm even in the baby dedication ceremonial thing

what the heck....
see how I posed myself in baby dedication time. Instead of trying to put the center into the baby. I posed like a hell there...

Ugly

Ugly by Constance Briscoe

Astonishing and captivating book. Love it. I would give this book a very high rate.

Basically the book is an autobiography. A story about a daughter, who was abused by her own mother for 19 years. She even named her ugly. She abused her in a way that I could not imagine a mom can do. Constance still has scares from the old day (all over her body, even knife marks, scars on head, breast, back, etc). She even left her starving alone in house. She gave her the same christmas present every year (she stole it and repackage it for the next year). New shoes, dress, ribbon, accesories, forget about those things. She never got those from her mom. But she stood up, working hard to reach her dream to become a barrister, which she made it.

An inspiring book although a bit sad, but still inspiring, motivating, and show that, in every darkness situation, there is always a ray of hope. The only thing who can stop you in getting out of the darkness is yourself. The only thing who can hinder you to achieve your dream is yourself.

Damn. I was reading too fast. I finished this book in 2 days (433 pages). And it was not even 2 days full reading, cause I have been only reading the book, while I am in the subway(tube) or in the bathroom. Sight there goes my money for only couple of hours reading. Nevertheless I enjoy the book. I have trained myself to read fast, due to my job and my time spare.... I can read books in a short time....

I was hearing this old song today. My goodness guess I am already old. hehehehe
I love the lyric. Not to hanging on from the past, the pain, the unhappiness. It is your choice to be buried inside the past, but you can also choose to let it go, to move on, unlock the chains, to start a new life.
Yes I've been hurt but I just move on. That might make some people think that I dont have a heart. Cause I don't want to be sad and to be stuck in the past. Life is too short to be spent like that.
May God bless you all, who are still live in the past. May God open your eyes to start living your life to the fullest.





I know this pain
Why do lock yourself up in these chains?
No one can change your life except for you
Dont ever let anyone step all over you
Just open your heart and your mind
Is it really fair to feel this way inside?

Chorus:
Some day somebodys gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Dont you know?
Dont you know things can change
Thingsll go your way
If you hold on for one more day
Can you hold on for one more day
Thingsll go your way
Hold on for one more day

You could sustain
Or are you comfortable with the pain?
Youve got no one to blame for your unhappiness
You got yourself into your own mess
Lettin your worries pass you by
Dont you think its worth your time
To change your mind?

(chorus)

I know that there is pain
But you hold on for one more day and
Break free the chains
Yeah I know that there is pain
But you hold on for one more day and you
Break free, break from the chains

Some day somebodys gonna make you want to
Turn around and say goodbye
Until then baby are you going to let them
Hold you down and make you cry
Dont you know?
Dont you know things can change
Thingsll go your way
If you hold on for one more day yeah
If you hold on

Dont you know things can change
Thingsll go your way
If you hold on for one more day,
If you hold on
Can you hold on
Hold on baby
Wont you tell me now
Hold on for one more day cause
Its gonna go your way

Dont you know things can change
Thingsll go your way
If you hold on for one more day
Cant you change it this time

Make up your mind
Hold on
Hold on
Baby hold on

never give up...

never give up
It's not over until I say so....

I don't have a heart?
could be
I take a distance in working life. Where my feeling and my heart will not influence my decision making process. Right is right, wrong is wrong. I hate if somebody lie. To make a wrong decision, make a mistake it is normal. But to lie. It's a big no no for me.

preparing for a workshop tomorrow.

I will be leading a quiet mixed of group tomorrow (multi nationalities). The goal is to build a solid team as well as build a common foundation for the team.

Will be difficult, a lot of challenges. But I am sure I can eat this thing till the end.

i am for Clinton

I know the hope is getting dimmer and dimmer for her. But she is still my lady.
She is bold, nor opportunistic and not racist. Sorry for Obama's people. I am for her, no matter what.

injured my back from sport.
Quiet annoying. Have to do less sport until the injury gone.

Now is already 4 days without sports. My body feeling a bit funny. But can not really do much at the moment. Even hurt like hell waking up from the bed. My shoulder spinned, twisted, arggghhh. Why do I do this funny sport. Yes I am a bit sport freak. Doing sport 4-5times a week to get rid of my stress and anger. Kind of anger management.
Will tell you all later about my sport. At the moment still a secret. :-D

Well i am posting a very nice music video from Cloud9 singing cover version from Beyonce's listen. Enjoy it....

what a day

my sister is missing in action.
I was so stressful loking for her around the world today. Went to her boyfriend's apartment, to her dorm. Calling a lot of people even the university, her friend, my friend, the information center. etc.
found out she is okay. Actually IN HOLIDAY WITH HER BOYFRIEND without telling me. I am going to blast her, when she come. :-D this naughty little creature....

more later. It is past midnight. I just came home drop death tired. Doing 3 hours sport to minimish my anger.